1-26-2012 Moon in Pisces Kin 138 8 Etznab

If you’re jean suited, slumped over, while riding on an old faded red Farmall Tractor or decked out in Tiffany Diamonds, laid back in a 23 passenger seated stretch limousine, driven by a professional chauffeur makes little difference in the grand scheme of things. It’s a very short run either way. Both vehicles demonstrate a particular mind set which does not alter one ounce of essence in one’s life. These elastically constructed experiences vanish before the trip ends, unless one emerges from the temporary seat of illusion with himself/herself, completely aware of the episode’s inability to alter evolutionary events. In other words, we shall all go through many of these various scenes, some more than others; and, depending upon the stage, state and status of our emotional barometer, at the time, the occasion will prove to be invigoratingly exciting or mentally depressing.

All events seem to occur on the outside; yet, nothing could be further from the supposed reality in which we inhabit. Our emotionally constructed world is built upon prior ingrained knowledge, preferred conceptual imagination, rehearsed memory filtered through years of conditioned responses. The entrenched habit of our vain contrived interactions is stilted and pretentious. We are incapable of venturing into the moment without a prefabricated thought of what is expected and/or initially desired. We don’t want demonstrated truth IF it interferes with our embedded ideas and intended plans. We may physically imagine and even go so far as to try to convince ourselves that we are interacting in the present circumstances but either our attention is locked into the past comparing the immediate situation or projected into the future competing for more of or ‘better than’ what is actually taking place.

We are simply not present for our lives. IF we were, we would not be carried away by the seemingly outer events which transpire that annoy or elate us. We would remain unmoved by the emotional barrage of festering self-generated relational parasites which tend to elevate or destroy. IF we would but stop to realize with ungoverned certainty that we cannot find what we think we want by searching. NONSENSE, you may say. But, ponder this: IF you could obtain what it was you thought you wanted, then you would have to cease all other propositions of desire for the one thing you think you lack. Let me try to better explain the difficulty is pursuing something in you that is NOT lost. YOU are complete in/with/by the present circumstances enveloped. The relationship is always with yourself though the other appears to interact. Now, I realize I’m in deep, congested waters divulging these esoteric unappreciated words.

When you stop looking for something that is not missing, in you, then you will meet what it is you have not yet encountered in yourself. Instead of projecting these needs onto the other and into various themes of successful, productive living or destructive, depressive unfulfilling affairs, you will realize you carry every possible incident prior to it appearing to happen. Deep heady stuff; I know, but none the less tangibly expressive. Every possible experience you will ever encounter refuses to be held back from you simply because you are necessary for it to unfold. What did I just say? I said your life is filled to overflowing with outwardly apparent obstacles (including the euphoria attached to what appears to be fortunate times: YES, that is an obstacle/barrier, as well, for it prevents you (prolongs) the de-masking process obtained when facing all of you, entirely without the accumulated incognito .

So many things thwart our attempts to break through the veil of forgetfulness but at the same time I write these words, I realize that is not altogether true. For nothing we will ever meet, in or out of the cosmos, can continue to frustrate us, except that we need to be discouraged for a season. Ambiguous, yes. We, as the integral part of life that we manifest and reside in, is so mysteriously and mischievously designed to keep us from obtaining what it is we have convinced ourselves we need in order to be complete. {Better explanation?} The impossibility resides in the fact that you can’t experience what you don’t in all reality show up for presently to incorporate. Not by comparison of yesterday or in competition of tomorrow.

So, how do we confront that which we are seemingly involved with without a lust of result? How do we drop the basic human need to get something from the encounter? Even, if that something is merely the idea of becoming enhanced for having met the situation or person? Nothing adds or takes anything away from us. Got that? We are never cheated, or increased by outer circumstances, people, places or partnership. They in no way add one iota to our life and its wealth of goodness. We are passively being subjected to our selves at every moment, in as much as we are encountering the moment in fullness.

It’s all a matter of conscious choices of various experiences with no one scene being more profitable than the other. There is no person who can ‘help you along’ or ‘hinder your progress’. If you prefer the tractor, plow your way to relic’s oblivion. If the ostentatious luxury ride is more your style, at the appointed moment, then blow it out in luxurious flair, as you go. The stagnation arises when we become dependent on either one for our sense of well being, sense of worth and happiness.

Remember: they are merely pleasure/pain rides integrated for and from you. We remain the same coming in as we do going out. As Jesus so eloquently, stated: WE are in this world but not of it.” How, then, could we ever be lost, except, of course, if we’re stumbling around pretending not to “KNOW the truth that sets us free?” Paraphrased.