1-23-12 Kin 135 5 Men New Moon in Aquarius

Chinese New Year of the Dragon

We are none rational beings. We vibrate and resonate to the soulful, pulsating, primal sounds that generate our indefinable actions. We know not the word ‘compromise’; although, some of our most inconsistent penetrative thoughts lure us to duty’s distraction, at times. Incomprehensibly capricious, we will not be governed or influenced by the fluctuating moods in temperament of another. Our willful natures are more than enough to suffice. We breathe, eat, drink, dance, live, love, laugh, luxuriate, and learn from ingesting and devouring our ‘yearned for’ passions. Some may refer to our delicacies as ‘bad’ habits, but we KNOW we are insulated from their insulting bashing terrine of small mindedness.

We walk with two legs not four. We love with two arms, not six; and, we learn through the excess of lavish living with ONE delegated mind of experience. We build our unique flavor of acute awareness by/though what we do whole-heartedly without resolve, regret or remorse. We play the game without a clue of what the rules are until we devise them for ourselves according to the particular choice of entertainment. With 95% of our thoughts generated from the unconscious realms, we are barreling our way through the dark tunnels without a light of understanding. When we adapt to other measures of rightful living, without having experienced the truthfulness of it ourselves, we are simply placating the creative force for a spell. She will rise again with a more ferocious fury not to be dismissed so indignantly.

No matter the facial personalities we try on, unless we find and execute our authentic voice, the countenance which is shown will be phony, false and furtively condescending. Why? Because, we instinctively feel the piercing, hallowing, cognitively, riveting sensations from our precious ruthless soul as she seeks unyielding artistic expression, we are duly compensated. We are born as sacred entertainers; therefore, we must entertain. We will not be reduced to the plastic-rubber mocking of a wind-up doll that performs when the key is properly turned. We will not be served up second billing. We will make our mistakes and make them count. We will do all there is to do and more if we so choose to liberate that which restrains and cannibalizes us.

Under the best of circumstances, we flaunt, fail and fry. But, we know we are alive! “People don’t change; Seasons do.” And, in time, our season will change bringing with it the course of divinely designated direction. We will not balk at its tentacle contents or lagoon appearance. We DON”T know what’s what. When we try to choose the best course, as calculated and manipulated by us, it may very well turn out to be the worst one possible. We simply must walk each step, one foot in the front of the other without a cumulative guileful mind of benefit. Things take their own specified course of action like water seeking its own level. We know, without knowing how we know, that patience, acceptance and determination are ranked highest in life’s worthy virtues.

We accept, embrace and exploit whatever lessons set before us. We do not need approval, validation or appreciation. We must follow the yellow brick road no matter if we end up at the emerald city or the local five and dime. The feather’s difference cannot be decided by us! What determines our plight, without question, is how much and how often we throw ourselves away through the habitual tendency to appease another, exchanging, diminishing or dismissing our desires. When we allow another to influence or infiltrate our immediate course of action, due to guilt, gratitude or by an ostentatious display of ardor, we renege on our covenant to be authentic.

We will do what we do without fan fare or forfeit. We must if we are to live without pocket full of grudges. No matter how hard we try to curb the inclination, bitterness grows like weeds, silently, when we do not openly follow our passion. Why on earth would we discount what motivates us? The flawed idea that we can, in some way, make another happy by postponing our desires smells of putrid rotten eggs! No such chance. The cunning ego, masterfully clever at trying to convince us we are responsible and subserviently accountable to/for another, remains, NOT so. We do what we do because we want to do it and for no other reason. (Including: first and foremost, sharing a relationship with another person)
Unless, we silence all disruptive voices demanding we do this or that, we are led into the abysmal quick-sand swamp of self-loathing. For awhile, we’ll kick, scream, cry, moan, blame, curse and vengefully try to retaliate. But, like everything else, those redundant voices of despair eventually get old, we, with the natural strength we embody, push through the deepest of depressions. Not before we ask the titillating poignant question: “What difference does it make?” And, the truth is: NONE! What kind of difference are we trying to make? Why did we seek to be heard, understood, appreciated, in the first place?

All we have to do is: Stop with the incessant need to be recognized for the so called UNIQUE person we think we are. Cease with trying to get something from whatever it is your passion renders. Just how many times can we be reminded to let go of the ideas of ‘making it’? It really gets old. And, the clinker is, WE get old right alongside of our futile gracious attempts in celebrated self importance. Just being ourselves is a full time non-rewarding non-justifiable job that pays off big time, but we won’t ever see it!