1-14-2012     Kin 126   9 Cimi

Study time! IF we began today, following suit, year after year after year, we may never understand the intricate infinite mechanics of music but what we do relate to and comprehend cannot be uttered in any language known to man.  Unlike our smooth muscle cells who are programmed, from before conception, to work without fail and without any help from us, so too, are we to appreciate the infallible sacred musical instrument of our lives without interference.  Certainly, there are times when things appear to be ‘helter skelter’ but in the midst of the apparent chaotic confusion, a well hidden plan continues to execute perfect order far from our eyes of perception. Just as we can’t see the smooth cell’s unrelenting labor; our insufferable, beheaded lack of information, at the time of tribulation and trial, does not obstruct the divine propitious arrangement. In short terms, we don’t matter in the long run.

Oftentimes, a door opens when we are able to walk through confidently, assured our personal will has been manifested. Then, there are other times, when the door is sealed so miraculously shut that nothing short of galactic dynamite would make a dent.  Any action taken to proceed in these formidable times would be foolish and contrary. So, how does one know when to move ahead and when to halt action? By listening to the sound of one’s gut as coffee moves through the intestines, while paying acute attention to the obvious signs, symbols, and omens offered prodigiously everywhere within six feet in whatever direction of the circumference.

It’s high time to get serious with affronted life course decisions.  No longer can you put off tomorrow what you glossed over  six months ago. You’ve turned into a walking corpse, simply because you put on happy face while seething at your belligerent core.  In other words, you are at war with yourself and refuse to admit the atrocities of the depth of your denial. Have you looked in the mirror lately? Have you examined the deep etching wrinkles creeping upon your face? IF you can’t see them easily, use a 10x mirror to show you the damage of blatant self-contradiction. Where do you really think all of that emphasized resentment, bitterness, jealousy, guilt, remorse and bereavement is coming from? It’s not your mother/father’s fault.  Grow up.  Stop with your incessant mealy-mouthed blaming and condemning.  You’ve tried to force doors open when it was impossible and you did not seize the moment of other wide open entrances, bemoaning the conditions and the timing.  So what? Those occasions are gone. You must take some personal responsibility in this on-going nauseas matter, now.

You don’t fool anyone, least of all, yourself.  You KNOW you have changed your mind; it’s time to change your soul’s residence. You have become so stuck in your present molded attitudes, “you stinketh” as Master Jesus declared to Lazaras. Never look over the shoulder at the other fella’s mistakes. Nothing he/she did caused your present predicament.  Why do you sit in constant judgment about what is better and how you always get the short end of the stick?  You honestly believe you are missing out on the “Good Life”? Give me a break!  Life is neither good nor bad. It simply is. It’s sort of like a refreshing dip in the pool, on a hot summer day.  Sometimes, the water is cold, sometimes warm, sometimes downright hot; either way, you’re still wet. Wasn’t that the objective in the first place?

You’re waiting for and want desperately for ‘something else’ to happen. So bad, in fact, that you neglect to realize that the ‘something else’ you’re looking for is unfolding right before your eyes.  But, you can’t see it because you are looking for ‘something else.’  Ding! Dong! The wicked witch is dead.  Now it’s time for you to walk straightway into the new ordinary dimension being offered.  These troublesome scenarios which are taking place, currently, are designed to elicit another ‘something else’ which is linked and charted to occur, now and later. One ‘something else’ follows another ‘something else’, continuously, without a rupture. 

But, because you get so wrapped up in demanding the ‘something else’ occur according to your specifications and times tables, you erroneously believe that IF you don’t go out make this ‘something else’ happen it will somehow forget to appear.  Stop for just a moment and ponder what the listless, emotionless, restless, boring, disinterested words you repeat to yourself may signify.  You’re continually reminding yourself that you are not happy because of the lack of visually appreciated productivity in your life.  How would you KNOW if you were productive or not? You mind is so distorted.

When you are saying “I want something else to be happening, instead of nothing,” you are in effect, agreeing that you are not currently participating in the ongoing treasure racked stored house  of events being offered to you as part of the ‘something else’ that is always occurring in momentous portions. Your replicated life is not suddenly going to break in with a whole new flavor, scent and color. When will you realize and accept the sanctified order associated with the ‘something else’ transpiring?  The ‘something else’ you are so earnestly waiting for to happen is blindsiding you.  The acoustic reality of your new residence that you view as NOTHING is the one and only abode you must inhabit.  Realize once and for all, you can’t speed ‘something else’ up or postpone it. You can only ignorantly complain about its untimely arrival and the surprising package it shows up as.